I need this...

I've snapped again.
It's so hard to keep everything cool when everything around me is falling apart.

Why have I completely snapped?
My parents might be breaking up...
My grades are completely awful...
And the one thing that set me off:
A bad dream...and something that happend that is so closely related that it's driving me insane.

I hate not being able to say it...
Tell the people I care about most just how much they're drilling me down.

I have to remember that everything will get better, but things have been going VERY VERY downhill.

I manage to cry at least three times a day, even sometimes during school.
Lucky in most of my classes we're doing a movie, or nobody pays attention to me...makes my life easier.

I wish my aunt was back in the US...
I wish I could talk to GB again...
I wish I wasn't so weak...

I want to be able to say what I want
I want to be ...
God damnit, this is stupid...

I just want everything to get better already...I want anything else bad to just happen..
PUT ME OUT OF MY DAMNED MISERY :(

I don't care if you're reading this and thinking "Great...another emo teenager" or if you even read this at all...I just need to do this.