SO I'm bored!

Hahahaha, What do you know?! :D
I almost ate a pineapple. My face itches :(
Ummmm
I was kinda reading a book earlier, aren't you proud of me? hahaha (:

It was BORING.

On the note of school...I also can't install this thing for comp sci, it's so frustrating....

Hrm..........WHAT DO I WRITE...I DON'T KNOW LOL
I own at barebones on Mw2, and there were like a million friends on wow, all my real ID friends made their status about me (:
Tom, Kathleen, Colby, Johnny, Mitchell, && kinda Julio hahahaa x)

Yeah. Boring day. MMHM. Ugh, Wave of depression ~ i have ice cream.. MMHM.

Soooo O:

I'm awesome.

Uh...I'm also going crazy.

Songs...Uh no...Errr...movies...nope....UHHH WHAT DO I POST HERE?

I don't know...oh, I found out that my friend is going to a college in Europe, so he doesn't want to hang out with me anymoree :'((
Q_Q

"Sometimes I wonder
Why im still waiting
Sometimes im shaking
Thats how you make me.
Sometimes i question
why im still here
Sometimes i think im going crazy

Can you help me out next time?"

iono.

"Something" - Escape the Fate .

Recently,

Today I bought a ventrillo server:)!

Me and two of my old NBS clanmates realized that most of the clan doesn't come on, and it is more of a world of warcraft clan anyways, so we made our own.

I don't want to go into detail right now, so I wont.
Woot--I got the power!

Anyways, Watched Family Guy with Julio and teased Brian, so productive day:)

teehee, 100% in Wyrauch? LOLWUT? :)

Since I have not posted in a while.

I'll recap my life lately

-Age of Depression
-Age of Happiness
-Age of Positivity
-Age of Productivty
-Age of OMFG ITS ALMOST SUMMER
-Age of LIFE SUCKS BUT I'M GOING TO IMAGINE IT ROCKS<333

"Never Let Me Go" - Family Force 5

LaLaLa

Hmmm(:

good day. I love my friends :)

AHA!

I just had an AHA moment and felt like I should let you know:)

Out of all the things that have been bothering me, I've figured out something...

I don't really want to say what it was, I just want to mention how FUNNY it is.

Again, back to my old mentally, everything happens for a reason(:
Things go bad, things turn up good, etc.

OMFG I got THAT look again. I thought people would be over that, seriously, but I guess not.
By "look" i mean when a person looks at you after you say something, and you know what they are hinting at. And for me, only me and Kevin understand the look, and oh my fucking god, did it PISS ME OFF.

I couldn't slap the guy for doing it, 'cuz I already understood what he was trying to say, but I mean, THE LOOK???
I've already been bothered by whatever it was he was looking at before he looked at me, but goddamnit. :\

IF YOU SEE SOMETHING, DON'T GIVE ME THE FREAKING LOOK, HELP ME. :'(
Ahwell...

"Good Times" Latch Key Kid :) Got to change my thought process.

I'm like Eh

I want to say alot of things....but I wont.

I've been thinking alot. Which basically means, I'M REALLY DEPRESSED ABOUT SOMETHING.

I don't feel like explaining it. I'll just blab on about something you dont know because i love the myserious edge it gives me.

Anyways, I start new anime Bokura Ga Ita. I feel like a loser when the names are like that...I know the english title, We Were There. It's adorable.

Meh, I WANT TO SMILEEE, BUUUT I WANT TO BE RELAXED...I'm not even in AP and I'm stressing out...Goddamnit.

Can I go die in a hole? Nah...thats too silly. I want to die quickly. I'm a baby like that. UGH I NEED TO DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE.

I WILL EDIT.


OH HEY HOUR LATER....HAVEN'T POSTED THIS YET LMFAO I FAIL AT LIFE.
mkwell... hrm

"Gotten" - Slash (featuring lead singer from Maroon 5, his name escapes me at the moment)

OH AND

"If You Only Knew" - Shinedown <- love that song so much

kbye

2 things...

I had a great morning:)

&I have TERRIBLE luck :(

"According to You" - Oriathni

So...

"She should be in P.E."

:\

^1[^7NBS^1]^7xXx^1N^7oblexXx: hmmmmmmmmmmmm how do i say that ill be playing video games
^1[^7NBS^1]^7xXx^1N^7oblexXx: instead of talking to her
^1[^7NBS^1]^7xXx^1N^7oblexXx: gently
^1[^7NBS^1]^7xXx^1N^7oblexXx: grr
^6[^5NBS^6].net: HAHHAHA
^6[^5NBS^6].net: you can't

LOLBRiAN :) on playing video games instead of talking to his girlfriend

Prematerionous: i like big dicks and i cannot lie
INCREDIBLY SEXY 67 YEAR OLD MAN: 4 moreee
INCREDIBLY SEXY 67 YEAR OLD MAN: lol
INCREDIBLY SEXY 67 YEAR OLD MAN: Me too
INCREDIBLY SEXY 67 YEAR OLD MAN: odd
Prematerionous: ^ i love her dick
INCREDIBLY SEXY 67 YEAR OLD MAN: ;)

TOXI LOL -bored in lobby of l4d2 xD

Mannnnn

So it's Sunday, and it has basically been a repeat of Saturday.

"Pwnage" on Left 4 Dead 2 and Modern Warfare 2.
So nerdy...
Although today I helped my sister get ready for her NCL(National Charity League) Tea.
/Sigh/
I would be doing that kind of stuff if I got along better with other girls.

I'm just too weird for that stuff.
I'm way too depressed to write a proper post. So I'll probably write a new one later.

I need to find someone to talk to...I hate being home alone sometimes...

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"Need You Now" - Lady Antebellum

A Ladybug

So,
It was another one of those days where I was just not feeling it.
However, I did like the way my shirt fit on me :)

I'm feeling confident with my body recently, so that's a plus. Everything else, I'm not too confident in.

I think I'm really weird. I realize I can't talk to certain people and stuff. My gosh, I really wish I could die in a hole right now.

Okay, nevermind that. Today, even though I was feeling like crap, everything worked out perfectly for me. I mean, no quizzes/tests, finished my history project, easy busywork, I could sleep 5th period.

WHICH REMINDS ME ; I saw 3 ladybugs outside, and when I walked into my classroom, a ladybug was on me, and flew to my backpack, and never flew away. It liked me I think:)

That made me happy.

Nicole: FOOTBALL!
Miranda&Kelly: WHERE?!
Me: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL :)

I love track now. I guess it took me getting really sick to realize just how great a sport it is. There are so many great people.

Q-Q

Man, since the second I woke up, this day has been terrible.

Everything just gets WORSE.
Wake up, only have 5 minutes to get ready, and end up wearing a shirt i wear a lot. Ugh...

Hair was lazily let down, and everything about it was so LAZY, i GET IT. Nightmares suck, they really do. I had a headache for most of the day...then I found my Tylenol in my backpack, and am like, "Yay, one good thing".

Problem with that is, more tests and failing. I so read the chapters, I guess I just wasn't thinking right. My throat started to hurt around tutorial. Bust.

Just kind of took the quiz in math, was over today. Davis was ridiculous.
Chemistry...I was the basically only one actually doing the work, again. I wish there was at least ONE person in that class that spoke English that could help me.

Lunch rolls around, and my feet hurt so bad....ugh stupid socks. When I head to track and start running - WHAT DO I KNOW, I have a huge hole in my skin & my shoe has a big BLOTCH OF blood. Running was a bitch to do. Couldn't breathe, so I got to Hicks about 5 minutes after everyone else. Fun shit. Kayley saved me though, she told coach what happend, and we turned back together. Walked basically all of it, and got back faster than I had gotten there. -__________-

When I went home, there was like my favorite food growing up...and I couldn't enjoy it. So I went upstairs, took a shower, and slept. Now I'm here. Typing this. Being really annoyed at life.

Oh- I have a turban :D

Song ;

"Wake Me Up" - The Veronicas :)

Oh, its Sunday

Hey guys(:
As you can see, I'm flaking on my posts, but I have an excuse.

yesterday i was out for most of the night. I was busy with my boyfriend(:

He came over and we watched Pulp Fiction (Hilarious movie)!!
Then went out for some Japanese food. ( I can't use chop sticks LOL)

Anyways, that was like my day yesterday. There are some other significant stuff that happend, but I don't feel like going into detail about it.

On another note, today was annoying. Woke up to the sound of Samuel L. Jackson screaming " WHAT DID MARCELLUS WALLES LOOK LIKE?!" (or however you spell it)
I sat down, played pokemon, and watched it. I'm battling Lance! I beat the elite four on one runthrough. I'm proud of myself(:
hahahaha!

Hrm...I went out with my sister and mom, to shop for my sister's promotion dresses. My sister is the most violent speaker I know. She is so mean, and she's a crazy dress shopper. She screams and gets very angry when something doesn't work. It was TERRIFYING.

On the plus side - I got new shoes!
They're pretty(:

Hrm,,,,what else is there to say? Oh 10 - 1 Kill death on search and destroy. I'm kind of proud of that. LOL.

Guess it's time for my song of the day (:

"When We Say ( Juicebox )" by AJ Rafael. It's an adorable song, if you have not heard it, listen to it. (:

In addition ;

I will always love this song(:

Hey there.

I'm having a really bad Saturday so far -___________-;

:D

My Eevee evolved into an Umbreon<3 :)

YAAAAY:D

I've been leveling it between dieing and spawinging in l4d2 !
THE PASSING COMES OUT TOMORROW!
I have a fever !!!
HRM, MEET TOMORROW...NO RUNNING? Maybe, dunno.

I'd actually be kinda sad if I couldn't run tomorrow....I feel like I've improved greatly this week:)!

Anyways, I'm poop-ed and i wanna play more pokemon:)
HELP ME FIND A NAME FOR MY UMBREON! :D

What pokemon should i add next???

"Animal" - Neon Trees :D

Something to add :)

LOOK AT THE SURVIVORS IN THE BACKGROUND. THE ORIGINAL CAST SILHOUETTES KEEP CHANGING.

I've got it back ! :)

Well, guess what I found?? [:
MY INTEGRITY. YEEEAH <3


Thanks Kali Shelton & Coach Crouch:)
I'm now back to my old, focused, no ditch self. :]

Okay, well , wanted to say that. Aside from that, I'm getting back into manga and anime, AND SCREAMO. LOL

Don't worry, I'm not going emo (:

I feel great. With everything in life that bothers me, I'm thinking " Everything happens for a reason".
If something happens, that I've been trying to avoid, its okay. Hey, I had quite a ride (:

"Just wait and see" I'm done thinking of what could happen, and I'm just going to wait for something TO happen.
It's raining, my head is clear (:

I even started my post early for a change!!
I might post again later tonight, just maybe. We'll see.
I want to dance. (:

Oh, the passing comes out on the day of my track meet, I HAVE SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO

Man, I feel like...I don't know. I feel like myself again! Just chill, relaxed, I love this(:

I hope this feeling stays[:

Music for right now ;
"Rain" - Breaking Benjamin ;
The song should be playing in Eargasm section of my sidebar!

Not only can they do alternative rock, but they can do amazing soft songs. (:

I'll give you a reason why I placed this song here. The song, it just clears my head. In my mind, all the rain is gone, and I can only see sunshine :)

Kwell, time to chill out some more. Byee!

OHWOW

Almost forgot ; My song of the day!! :D

"Together Forever" It's featured on the Original Pokemon Soundtrack:)

GOTTA CATCH THEM ALL....

POKEMON ! :)

I'm going to tell you guys how I got caught up in Pokemon.

It started early....
I remember one day, turning the TV on, and there's a show that plays...It had like monsters and they were ADORABLE.

Kso, day one, that was it. LOL

I started enjoying Pokemon when I was 4. I remember going to Kindergarten meetings with a mini pokeball in my hand, and talking about them with my neighbor. IT USED TO BE ALL THE RAGE.

Man, I remember, the first time I ever got in trouble at school. Some kid told a teacher I brought my toy Squirttle, and the bitch TOOK IT AWAY Q-Q. THE FIEND.

Well, that summer, I went to Greece. Athens, Greece to be exact. I REALLY HIT THE PEAK OF MY OBSESSION THERE. I have an awesome aunt. She lets me express myself. I remember her letting me watch Pokemon on her TV, IT WAS THE ONLY SHOW I WATCHED &&it wasn't even in ENGLISH. (:

I enjoyed it simply because , it was Pokemon.

I got cards and toys ALL THE TIME. My aunt, she SPOILED ME. Oh my goodness, I remember coming back on the plane with 3 more bags than when I first arrived. FILLED WITH SO MANY THINGS. If you ask me, I can show you Pokemon cards in GREEK. Dude I was so legit.

Anyways, it doesn't go away after that. Probably 2 years after that, I played my first Pokemon game. Saphire, I know I started late, but sue me, I didn't have any other console than the ps2.

I was so into Saphire, me and my two best friends at the time, Aleena and Bells, played, talked, drew, we did EVERYTHING together related to Pokemon. It was crazy.

I remember, bringing my Pink Gameboy Advance to school and hiding in the girls bathroom with Aleena and Bells playing. That lead to the first time I ever got grounded. Melissa and Amy peered over the stall ( weird, but eh, we were kids), and saw us playing. They ran over to my mom ( who worked as a noon duty at the time), and got me grounded for 3 months.

This is funny because I was just talking to a friend about getting involved with problems and Amy. OMG, I told them how long I got grounded, and Amy's dad called my mom SO MANY TIMES, tell her how bad a mom she was letting me play my GAMEBOY, and she didn't even know till then. LOL MAN OKAY BACK TO MY STORY.

I died a little when I couldn't play my game....BUT THEN I GOT BACK INTO THE CARD GAME , and the show, OMG THE SHOW, I watched it ALL THE TIME.

Addicted, yes....well, I kept playing the games, battled every chance I got. I remember me and my cousin, doing LINK BATTLES ALL THE TIME.

Then GB and Vince got in the mix, and MAN. So much nerdgasms. JUST MORE AND MORE PLAYING.

I remember once, doing homework(back when I did it before it was actually due), playing Pokemon Colosseum, playing Pokemon firered, going through my cards, and TALKING ON THE PHONE ABOUT POKEMON. HAHAHAH

My secret obsession, that I guess not a lot of my current friends know I have(:

If I can find a picture of me when I was like 8 holding a Jigglypuff in a Christmas picture & I'm staring directly at it, I'll post it.

Here we go again!

Soo ; It is Sunday, didn't go to church :\

Today was ...hrm....woke up at 5, sneezing like CRAZY @-@;
Then some talking with my mom. She's being really chill lately:)

Played ALOT of pokemon:D
FINALLY CAUGHT MISDREVUS AND LUGIA <3333
&&I finally entered Kanto...so productive in that area!

Then watched my sister play soccer. The team she played won yesterday 7-0, and today they lost 0-1. So it was an INTENSE GAME. My sister was the MVP:)

I wish I were that good at sports :'(

Someday? :)

Anyways, went home, go teased for my weight, eh. I'm a fatty ; OKAY I GET IT.

So, when I got home, i took a little nap. Started more pokemon, friend called me, talked for like 2 minutes....yawn.

Played MW2 :)
I still lol at the fact I'm in a Clan...Thanks Julio:)

for
1. Convincing me to by Mw2
2. Being so nice to me
3. Introducing me to the clan!
4. BEING MY FIRST FOLLOWER(:!!!

anyways -
Music time

"Need You Now" - Lady Antebellum
"Clowns (Can You See Me Now)" - T.a.T.u.

Night.

Ninja !

Woke up -
Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh, &Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Fun.

Shower. Ahhhh .

More Pokemon, phone calls, text to get ready for going out.

Went to my boyfriends Karate demonstration thing. It was really cool (:

He probably doesn't know this, but I find him doing karate so hot. HAHAHAHA [:

Anyways ; Walked around, awkward, mmmhm.
Olive Garden. I was REALLY full. Man I'm an weird person. I can't speak right, I guess that is why I'm considered really weird. Sue me. :\

Boyfriend walked me back to my house. Hugged him, it felt warm(:

&&now I am here. Mhm, time to play more pokemon! :)

"Bulletproof" - La Roux

"This time baby I'll beeee Bullet-proooooof"

TGIF.

So, today is Friday.
YAAY:)
Too bad I woke up sick this morning. I was in no shape to go to school either. I stayed up late to do a project. I'm an idiot in that class, I have a low grade, and my partner knows that (lucky i have him LOL). Hmmm, boys and their games...I have the same issue.
All that set aside, I was not ready to go to school. I hate being tired and sick ,but i went regardless. Managed to sneak by my project(thank you BRANDON). So part 1 DONE.

2nd period...
Well, there was a pep rally today. Not a fan honestly. I don't like watching the cheer team, or the dance team, or any other silly thing they put on. It's all just silly. Ran into my friends and my boyfriend. It was alright. I hate thinking. (just saying) ANYWAYS, when I returned from the assembly, me and a few of my friends did some Pokemon battling. Man I'm a nerd.

3rd period....
there was a sub, so BORING.

4th period...
MATH - nuff said

5th period...
I slept and Q-Q'd about my life to myself.

Lunch was eh. I mean, I hate being alone. When I'm sick, I don't enjoy trying hard to socialize. My best friend swung around, invited me to go with him, nahhhh. Rather hang around le boyfriend.

I left track early, I was just over today. Went home, relaxed, played Pokemon.
My best friend came over, with another friend.
We played games, watched The Hangover bonus features, watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall(well parts of it), and then fought bugs.
Scary stuff.

One last thing ;
I read this and was like awwwww...
"Sometimes when I see you down or sad I want to talk to you. Sometimes when I see you bored and alone I want to try and cheer you up. Sometimes when I talk to you I feel like I just annoy you. Sometimes when I talk to you I just want to say I love you"

I totally just started crying when I typed that. WHOOP-DI-FLIPPING DOOOO.

Regardless, I feel like shit, I'm depressed, and I want to play Pokemon. So goodnight all(:

WOW I'M BACK AGAIN(:
Hey.
Life is calm again.

Raced today, it was pretty embarrassing.
Got lapped by everyone, lucky there were only 7 people.
Talked to my bestie all day(:
Hrm....boyfriend, being the boyfriend. <3
Uh...PROJECT...
GOT TO DO PROJECT

-look up song Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy :)

I need this...

I've snapped again.
It's so hard to keep everything cool when everything around me is falling apart.

Why have I completely snapped?
My parents might be breaking up...
My grades are completely awful...
And the one thing that set me off:
A bad dream...and something that happend that is so closely related that it's driving me insane.

I hate not being able to say it...
Tell the people I care about most just how much they're drilling me down.

I have to remember that everything will get better, but things have been going VERY VERY downhill.

I manage to cry at least three times a day, even sometimes during school.
Lucky in most of my classes we're doing a movie, or nobody pays attention to me...makes my life easier.

I wish my aunt was back in the US...
I wish I could talk to GB again...
I wish I wasn't so weak...

I want to be able to say what I want
I want to be ...
God damnit, this is stupid...

I just want everything to get better already...I want anything else bad to just happen..
PUT ME OUT OF MY DAMNED MISERY :(

I don't care if you're reading this and thinking "Great...another emo teenager" or if you even read this at all...I just need to do this.

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Guys are clueless...
It's ridiculous! MY GOD